Day 3 and I am still motivated. That's a good thing! I can't wait to do the Diva Dash, it is all I can think about. What makes it even more exciting is all the bling that is involved. I really want to get one of those fitness watches that track your heart rate, calories burned, and distance but wow, they are expensive. I guess I will just have to do it the old fashioned way for now. Maybe I will reward myself with one when I reach a goal. Like not binging for a month or something.
Mmmmm, just made my Chocolate PB protein shake. OMG it is so good. It has:
1C Light Vanilla Soy Milk
3/4 Crushed Ice
1 T Natural Peanut Butter
2 t Cocoa Powder (Unsweetened)
1 Scoop of Unjury Chocolate Splendor Protein Powder
Blend in a blender and enjoy! My mother in law made it for me when she was visiting except that she used a different brand of protein. I liked it so much I have made it several times in just the last few days! Now, I know that some of you are thinking "how does she know about Unjury?" Well, I have been reluctant to blog about my surgery because I am quite disappointed with my results. But here goes, maybe this will help someone who might be experiencing what I am. Or maybe someone else has experienced it and can help me.
I had the Lap-Band surgery done on August 28, 2010. I had to do because I had some health concerns that were starting to creep up. For a couple of months I thought I had cancer and it really made me think. I was so concerned what other people would think of me for having weight loss surgery so I just never considered doing it before. When the cancer scare happened, I said to myself "forget about everyone else and think about your son". I want to be around for my son when he goes to college, gets married, has kids, ect. I knew that if I didn't do something about my weight, that it was possible I could miss all of these things. Therefore, I told myself to get over it, to forget what other people think and do this for ME!
I made myself and appointment and started the process for the Lap-Band surgery. I chose this particular surgery because I felt that it was the least invasive and had the least amount of risk. I did very well preparing for the surgery, even lost 30 lbs. Then after the surgery I got a personal trainer and worked out with him twice a week and then by myself on the days I didn't meet with him. I struggled with a band that was too tight, so I was light headed after working out, with a band that was too loose, so I was easting too much, and then it seemed just right up. During all that time, I had only lost another 20 lbs. This brings us up to August 2011. I had lost a total of 50 lbs (20 lbs post op) and then I was stuck.
My life got super busy! My husband had left for Korea in October of 2010 for a 1 year remote assignment leaving me with my teenage son and a household to take care of. I am a very independent person so I was fine with all of this. Right after he left, I finished my BA degree in Criminal Justice and life seemed to get a little easier to handle with school out of the way. I still had a teenage son, a full time job, a part time job, and a workout routine to maintain. Everything was going well until I decided to buy a house. I had it built from the ground up so while it was being built, life was pretty normal except for the weekend trips to see the house (45 min drive). It was when I had to move in that everything changed.
On July 28, 2011 I moved into my beautiful brand new home! Now I live 45-60 minutes from work (not including the crazy DC traffic) and I have a mortgage that I have to pay so I had to stop seeing the personal trainer. Once I did that I couldn't seem to find any time to go to the gym. It always seemed like I needed to do something with the house, buy furniture, decorate, clean, unpack!!! Mind you, I did all of this while my husband was in Korea. My dad came out to help but it was still very stressful.
Once I stopped working out, the weight loss completely stopped. Then my band must have gotten loose cuz I found myself eating more then before. I hadn't weighed myself for a while so when I stepped on the scale and I had gained 15 lbs I almost died. I thought to myself, I need to go to the doctor (I had cancelled my last 3 appointment since all was fine and I didn't have enough leave at work). When I finally got to calling the insurance company to extend my referral (Tricare), they decided they needed to research my situation and get back to me. They keep changing my primary care manager and they always want to evaluate me before they will renew it. It is very frustrating. I am about to make a stink. BTW, I am still waiting!
In the meantime, I am trying to be very aware of the amount of calories I am consuming but I am also very worried about seeing my Lap-Band doctor again because I am embarrassed that I have had this step back. He is a great doctor but I just can't shake this feeling. I am forcing myself to call my primary care manager next week and demand my referral because what if something else is wrong, maybe it slipped or something. I don't have any of the symptoms but I don't know, I am just freaking out!
Until I get to the doctor, I have started working out again and watching my food intake much better, maybe I will loose the weight before I see him and I won't have to be so embarrassed. And now that I am focusing on training for the Diva Dash, it can only get better from here!
BTW, my husband returned from Korea in October 2011!
Friday, January 13, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
DAY 2....AWESOME!
I have had a great day today. I did have a Krispy Creme donut that one of my co-workers brought to work but I am making that my only sweet for the day. I had a smoothie and half a banana for breakfast, air popped popcorn for a snack (and the donut), chicken and noodle casserole for lunch, and a protein shake for my post exercise snack. For dinner I will have chicken and veggies and possibly a small baked potato that is in the fridge and needs to be eaten. Not bad for day 2!
I did work out today, even though I would have liked it to have been more intense. I haven't worked out in a few months so I am trying to get back in the groove before I build the intensity. My dogs were very grateful for their long walk. My leg got numb (goes away when I continue to exercise so I am not worried). It use to keep me from working out but now I realize that I need to work through it for a week or so and then it goes away all together. It sucks that getting out of the habit for only a few months set me back so far though. At least I know that it is temporary.
Today I made another decision....boy what is it with these dang decisions I keep making? :) I have decided that I am going to participate in a 1/2 marathon. It is called the Diva Dash and it is in Myrtle Beach in May. I thought it would be a great excuse for a girls weekend so I invited my good friends Tanja and Steph to join me. We try to do something each year so this year I thought this would be perfect since we are all trying to get in shape and lose weight.
I did work out today, even though I would have liked it to have been more intense. I haven't worked out in a few months so I am trying to get back in the groove before I build the intensity. My dogs were very grateful for their long walk. My leg got numb (goes away when I continue to exercise so I am not worried). It use to keep me from working out but now I realize that I need to work through it for a week or so and then it goes away all together. It sucks that getting out of the habit for only a few months set me back so far though. At least I know that it is temporary.
Today I made another decision....boy what is it with these dang decisions I keep making? :) I have decided that I am going to participate in a 1/2 marathon. It is called the Diva Dash and it is in Myrtle Beach in May. I thought it would be a great excuse for a girls weekend so I invited my good friends Tanja and Steph to join me. We try to do something each year so this year I thought this would be perfect since we are all trying to get in shape and lose weight.
A DECISION HAS BEEN MADE...AND I AM STICKING TO IT!
Yesterday I started to write my first entry for my blog but I wasn't able to type in until today.
Today (11 Jan 12) I have decided a couple of things. First, I have decided that enough is enough, I am tired of being FAT! Yes I said the "F" word but let's not kid ourselves anymore. We can think of a million nice ways to say it but it is what it is. I personally need to hear it because I don't like it and that makes me want to do something about it. When someone tells me "you're just fluffy" or "a little over weight", it only makes me think for a minute how I should probablly exercise more or eat better or even stop having desserts....ya right! So I have determined that I need to hear the dreaded "F" word. It makes me think of dramatic ways to improve myself. So today I have decided to put it in writing, making it official. I WILL GET THIN & HEALTHY!
Thanks to the inspiration I am getting from reading the blog "Runs for Cookies", I have ordered my "Glocket" (Goal+Locket) from Katie's website and I am anxiously awaiting its arrival. I am all reved up thanks to Katie's blog. Her life story is similiar to mine, I have always had weight issues and at my biggest I was a 24-26, just like her (she was a 24). Now she is a size 4 and I so want to be like her. If she can do it, so can I. Therefore, I am reinstating what a coworker and I call "OPHOT" (Operation Hotness). We have OPHOT meetings regularly to keep us focused and motivated but we haven't had one in a while (like over a year). We work with all men so when we say we are going to an OPHOT meeting, they have no idea what that means, at least we don't t hink they do. LOL! Look out world, I am gonna amaze you!
Now for my second decision. For years people have told me to keep a journal, that it helps with weight loss and I have absolutely refused. I have finally decided that I'll give it a shot, I mean, what do I have to lose?
And last but not least, I have decided to take Katie's lead and keep a running total number of days I go without binging.
Now, with positive aspirations, I will make it OFFICIAL and say that today "is" my first official binge free day! Thanks again to Katie, you have no idea what an inspiration you are!
Today (11 Jan 12) I have decided a couple of things. First, I have decided that enough is enough, I am tired of being FAT! Yes I said the "F" word but let's not kid ourselves anymore. We can think of a million nice ways to say it but it is what it is. I personally need to hear it because I don't like it and that makes me want to do something about it. When someone tells me "you're just fluffy" or "a little over weight", it only makes me think for a minute how I should probablly exercise more or eat better or even stop having desserts....ya right! So I have determined that I need to hear the dreaded "F" word. It makes me think of dramatic ways to improve myself. So today I have decided to put it in writing, making it official. I WILL GET THIN & HEALTHY!
Thanks to the inspiration I am getting from reading the blog "Runs for Cookies", I have ordered my "Glocket" (Goal+Locket) from Katie's website and I am anxiously awaiting its arrival. I am all reved up thanks to Katie's blog. Her life story is similiar to mine, I have always had weight issues and at my biggest I was a 24-26, just like her (she was a 24). Now she is a size 4 and I so want to be like her. If she can do it, so can I. Therefore, I am reinstating what a coworker and I call "OPHOT" (Operation Hotness). We have OPHOT meetings regularly to keep us focused and motivated but we haven't had one in a while (like over a year). We work with all men so when we say we are going to an OPHOT meeting, they have no idea what that means, at least we don't t hink they do. LOL! Look out world, I am gonna amaze you!
Now for my second decision. For years people have told me to keep a journal, that it helps with weight loss and I have absolutely refused. I have finally decided that I'll give it a shot, I mean, what do I have to lose?
And last but not least, I have decided to take Katie's lead and keep a running total number of days I go without binging.
Now, with positive aspirations, I will make it OFFICIAL and say that today "is" my first official binge free day! Thanks again to Katie, you have no idea what an inspiration you are!
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